You keep coming back — weird. Do you have an actual interest in my life or are you just bored? Eh, whatever the case may be let me tell you about something that happened recently.
I FOUND OUT MY BEST FRIEND IS PREGNANT.
Okay, now that I got that out of the way, let me explain more. Just a few short weeks ago her and I were chatting about how we felt that our lives were stunted in comparison to some of our friends. We have friends that are married and own beautiful homes and yet, here we are living paycheck to paycheck trying to figure out how to keep our heads above water. She told me about how she had started seeing this guy, and this guy was end game for her. Queue ring on finger and marriage bells type of guy. I scoffed it off to her being her. But fast forward to now, she calls me and says “I’m pregnant.”
Internally I am freaking out. I’m excited for her, excited to be an aunt (she has no siblings so that makes me honorary aunt) but, at the same time I feel left out and behind again. Why am I so far behind? The idea of children right now scares me to no end. I am not ready to be a mom, not to a human child at least. If I’m not ready for this stage of my life, why does it make me feel so behind? Is there something wrong with me? I mean, I am 27. Having a child at this age is fairly normal for a lot of people. Maybe I am freaking out because now I feel alone. She was my crutch, we talked about this stuff together and now all of a sudden I’m alone. She has started her life and I’m here just trying to survive off ramen and maybe get a job with benefits.
I feel tired and alone. Send help in the form of coffee and maybe job prospects.
– The Lost Millennial