Since my last post my life has been all sorts of crazy. I got back to Montana only to feel a strong desire to move home — New York. Since getting back I’ve applied to countless jobs at home and set a tentative moving date of November 13th. It’s all happening so fast. I’m not sure how this decision will pan out. Will I be happy back at home? I just need to figure out my life and unfortunately I can’t do that in Montana. I can’t find a job here, well I can’t find a good one at least. I feel like I have hit a crossroads and I’m having a conversation with the Cheshire cat, where he tells me it doesn’t really matter which way I go. For all of you that have not seen Alice in Wonderland or had the privilege of reading the book here’s the quote I am referencing:
“Alice asked the Cheshire Cat, who was sitting in a tree, “What road do I take?”
The cat asked, “Where do you want to go?”
“I don’t know,” Alice answered.
“Then,” said the cat, “it really doesn’t matter, does it?”
It doesn’t really matter which way I go, I guess, so long as I go somewhere. I need a change. I am feeling anxious and stir crazy. I desire a change but I am lost as to what change I need. It’s similar to knowing you’re hungry but having no idea what you want to eat. I’m hungry for more, I just don’t really know what.
::: insert dramatic sigh here:::
Sorry for all of the Alice in Wonderland references in this post. I do love that book. If you haven’t read it, you should. Seriously, go buy it here . No, I did not get sponsored by Barnes and Noble to write this. Although that would be pretty awesome. I just love books and that book in particular.
– The Lost Millennial